Posted: April 22, 2011 in LoveShits Rainy Days, Sad in the Rain

Like I really don’t know how to say this face to face to people but seriously, everyone should know this.

Ok, I love my friends and everyone. Serious. But I can’t spend time with any couples. I just can’t. I just hate it. It’s a phobia and it makes me feel shitcrap so don’t ask me to get over it.

If I spend time with a friend and suddenly her boyfriend is joining us or what I just feel this sinking feeling in my stomach and I stop talking and I just want to go home, and cry.

So please don’t ask me to any occasion where it will be a heavy-couple zone. I’m sorry I just can’t. I really can’t. I’m not making up excuses but I don’t know how to reject you.

If my best friend is throwing a birthday party and her boyfriend will be there, I don’t think I’d go.

I don’t even really want to go to my cousin’s wedding.

This is how bad it is. So please take note and I’m sorry 😦

I just CAN’T do it and face this kind of situation that makes me feel all emoshit. I don’t want to be reminded. I’m not the same as before but I’m trying to be as cheerful as I was, but I can’t do it if I have to face seeing people I know being in love and showing it in front of me. I’ll just lose it. And feel shit. Just try to understand.

You wouldn’t want me to feel shit right?


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