Pain – The Experience

Posted: June 16, 2011 in Sad in the Rain, Wisdom in Rain

To those who have never felt the extreme pain of either grief, or betrayal or anything at all, please be reminded that it is a horrible feeling. People who are not strong, like me, take a long time to be whole again.

The pain is like something tearing inside your chest, and no matter what you’re doing, where you are, nothing can take your mind off it. You lie awake at night thinking about it, and when you wake up the next day you feel better but after that first second it all floods back into your mind and you feel shitty.

Pain is when there’s physical pain causing a hollow feeling in your chest and stomach, when your palms are cold and sweaty and you crouch by the door and cry on the floor. When everything, even life, seems like a blur and daze that passes by in a haze of pain. When you just feel HORRIBLE, inside and out, and you seem to fall deeper and deeper into the hole, and no one and nothing can help. And tears keep falling, and the wound keeps hurting, and it throbs from within and makes you feel so.. suan (sour in English).

That is pain, but you always learn something from it. Always, you learn, and grow and become more mature.


A random picture from my Lasallian Camp album 🙂


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