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This post is dedicated to you! πŸ™‚

I should probably be blogging about Grad Night but I’m wayy too tired and it’s my off day from work, cut me some slack!

So anyways, YOU. I’m seriously glad that I have you in my life. I know this sounds cheesy and I don’t care who reads this and judges but sometimes I’m just so glad and happy to have you by my side.

Some of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me came from you. And I still remember how in the beginning I doubted if we were right for each other because I didn’t think you would be the kind who does something special and has that thought to do all the cheesy stuff and I might feel neglected, unhappy, etc. But it couldn’t be further away.

I entered this with no expectations, no high hopes, but good thing is, I didn’t come into this with the thinking that “confirm it won’t last” as I always do. I didn’t think about the end, I thought just about NOW. You changed a lot, in a good way, to me, and I hope I changed too. You’ve made me a more positive person, you have. Now that I think about it, my love life has been pretty lucky. Not miserable/fail as I thought. Amicable, if not then clean breakups, and I’ve been lucky to stumble across you in my path.

You’re one of the most sincere, honest, straightforward and uncomplicated guys I’ve ever met. You’re more of a girl than you let on and though you have spoiled me constantly but you have made me a better person because I don’t give you shit and I become a better human being when I’m with you. I respect you too much and I see you as an equal, someone to share everything with and not someone to take the blame and anger for everything that goes wrong. I’m a better person because I want to be better for you. Learning to control my temper, my demands, and trying to be more understanding.

Never once have you let me down when I need you. I can always count on you and it makes me relieved to know that there is someone for me in my life. I’m sure we can pull through everything, and I’ll be waiting for you and I know you will too. ❀ You have always been so true and sincere it melts my heart. I know that when I’m sad, you’re sad. I know that whenever I go to bed upset you can’t sleep too. I know you’re always here for me because you don’t say these things just for the sake of it but because you are sincere πŸ™‚

I love our movie nights and our beer challenges. I will always remember being carried across the road by you on July 14th and I will always remember our mad dress dash HAHA. πŸ™‚ Thanks for everything love, you’re the best ❀

According to foursquare, we’re 602 miles away.

According to my pilot, the distance between our cities are 960 km.

Numbers, which signify the endless miles.

I’m excited to go back to see you and all my wonderful friends again next week. Life is dreary here.

But I’m also sad, because after the next trip is over, I won’t have anything to look forward to anymore. Stuck here for 7 months. I can’t do it. I need to go back at least once more. 😦

Need to work and earn money. Just so I can escape here. I don’t know why but I feel like I’m in a cage every time I’m back. Maybe I forgot my roots already but all I know is, I am never coming back to this small town. I love my hometown, I will always miss home, but my heart and soul’s somewhere else now.

Life is a constant stream of change, relocation, and new roads in the future. Looking forward to where the next road takes me ❀

 

Smart Consumer

Posted: June 16, 2012 in Daily Rain, Happy in the Rain
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Staying up late because I’m watching UEFA and also because I’m reading reviews online. I am positively ANAL about reviews. Let it be buying phone, buying camera, getting a digital perm, buying lenses and so on, I’ll be glued to the screen reading up on each product for weeks on end. Yes, I do my research before buying something, which is why I gain a lot of unnecessary knowledge about lenses and megapixels and phone processors and etcetera. I am a giant perfectionist and thus I want to get the perfect product!

Right now my current research is on BB creams. It’s so hard to choose! I have to decide if I want oil control, light or strong coverage, and so on, and worse is the price factor is also a big factor. I reviewed so many lenses that by now I know what I want (yay!)

Right now I’m googling on hair colours to dye ! My parents want it a darker shade for my upcoming interview, so I’m going to dye it. I actually quite like my hair colour now, it’s a bit washed out and light at the ends but it looks good in pictures. I last dyed it in late August and touched it up around January, so my roots are pretty bad now 😦 If I dye it now by the same time next year it’ll be ugly again when I start school 😦 but what to do, right now I’m researching on hair colours. So far all my colours have been a red or violet base, maybe I’ll try an ash brown? But ash doesn’t last long so I want a purple ashy hair colour like this:

And maybe next year I’ll dip dye or highlight it with pinks or purples πŸ˜‰ It’s time to do something daring! And I want to get a tattoo too! πŸ™‚ YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE!

Some pictures of dinner with my girls at Sharing Planet:

Chai and I πŸ™‚

Shelly and I πŸ™‚

Dada and I πŸ™‚ She’s the birthday girl!

Missed my girls and all our crazy high school times! So good to catch up and talk again πŸ™‚ We don’t need to stay in touch because we’ve known each other so long it’s the same everytime!

It’s True!

Posted: June 16, 2012 in Daily Rain, Happy in the Rain
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I read Xiaxue’s post about the Secret just now and suddenly I realised well, yes, it might be true.

I remember back in Form 4 when Churchill and Jeff showed me the Secret, I scoffed and being my usual cynical sarcastic self I mocked them and the book because I dismissed it as superstitious optimistic bullcrap.

But now I think back, some of the best things in my life are due to the fact that I used the Secret. I know, when it’s endorsed by my idol I Β see it in a new light.

At times I’m still sad and feel lonely and I don’t like the way my life is going.

I don’t practice the Secret 100% because I still have a lot of negative emotions such as doubt, depression, jealousy.

But let me list down the things I’ve gotten from the Secret.

1. Medicine. I lived my life in depression and fear that I wouldn’t get to change my course to Medicine. But I just pretended I could! I just planned my life and told everyone as if I’d already changed it. And voila, I can!

2. Studies. Everytime no matter how well prepared I am for exams I confidently tell myself that I can do it and I chant it to myself about 100 times a day. During SPM I chanted it during doing a paper. I do it for presentations too to pep myself up but I think that is just a confidence boost and not the Secret at work.

3. Breakup. I kept telling myself that life would be better after my breakup, and it did! I am so much happier with so many more friends and as a plus now there’s someone better in my life!

Shall put the Secret at work again soon! πŸ™‚

Yes I have finals soon and I’m still chilling online and I spent the whole night out haha I AM SCREWED. Well I’m gonna hope for the best and do my best since luck has not been on my side this past week. I’m broke from spending gifts on lecturers and I seriously hate one of my lecturers fml curse you but I’m finding time to blog!

Just got back from Maths workshop and I’m super tired. Some pictures from the past week:

Bio class.

Chem class!

Lynne and I and Miss Nancy, the chem lecturer!

Huansen and Alex, chemistry mates.

Beloved Mr Mustafa and other of his students, proudly showing off the tie and chocolates from us (:

A little bird! πŸ™‚

That’s all kthxbye.

I’m happy now with how things are. Please don’t tell me you love me, because that will ruin everything. Please don’t.

I hate how I always think I am better than people. My one year here in college has humbled me down a lot but at the same time I still feel like I judge people too much.

Not to say judge people, but I categorise someone instantly. Into smart, ambitious, or into fun-loving and irresponsible. Some fall in the middle. Sometimes I feel I am too intense for myself. Every day of my life I am reminded of what I want to achieve in the next 10 years, of how life would be. I spend too much of the present obsessing about the future and how much I want to leave a mark on the world. I’m one of those people (like Voldemort) who would do anything for immortality. Because I simply do not want to leave this world.

Sometimes I envy those fun-loving people who seem to have no worries or cares beyond the immediate moment or maybe tomorrow. I’ve never had that life. I have been strictly controlled with no free will on my own until recently, and I wonder how I would be if I had been given so much opportunity for fun as they have while I was growing up.

Nevertheless, this is one aspect of myself I’d like to change because I feel like it’s not healthy to objectify and label people.

Anyways, I received some pretty good news lately. Honestly, I’ve been living in fear all this while. Living with regrets over my choice for the future. Wondering if in 5 years time, I would look back and regret upon my choices and be envious of those who are living my dream just because of a stupid mistake I made. It feels like I’ve been given a second chance to redeem myself and make everyone proud now though. Though it’s not a sure thing, yet hope is there now. I don’t have to walk through Monash with a heavy heart staring at the building I wonder if I would ever set foot in, or looking at my friends and wondering if they would forget me if we parted ways. I’m very glad now that I know what I want to do, I have the chance to do it. Indeed it feels like a silver lining behind my cloud. Suddenly all my pain and problems this past few months seem hardly worth mentioning, because finally what matters most in the long run looks promising. πŸ™‚

Also, I have realised that to love, is to be selfless, and let a person go so that they will be happy. To smile when they are happy, instead of wondering why you are not their happiness, is courage, and that’s called love.